For years I did this on a regular basis.....and then would have a lot of regret which sucks big time. Having mental illness since being a teenager has given me lots of time to figure out how to somewhat control this issue. I usually stay alone for a few days and chew on it until i am ready to address the situation without a temporary emotion.
I have been really in a funky funk lately, came on all of a sudden.....was gonna take my klonopins and pull a Whitney Houston in the tub......i have and wonderful brother, and my sister who also suffers mental illness are the best support system i have. To change the subject, i really hope no one cares about caps and perfect punctuation because when i get to typing i just go for it and dont wanna mess with all that.
I really hope this blog reaches people like me, want people to know they arent alone. and i just need to say what i feel and cuss like a sailor and just get out my anger...enough for now......later....
What can we say about mental illness? I know that a lot of people think "its all in your head" well fuck you ......yes it is duh.......to live in my mind, to fight back an forth like there are two totally different people in there is exhausting. I hate taking pharmaceuticals, however I do because I am not good without them. I take klonopins for anxiety, but marijuana works much better. But pharm companies dont want ya to know that cuz that dips into their wallets. oh well......i stay in bed a lot lately, have no desire to go anywhere or do anything....I do have major stress in my house that will be in another post ......later..
